Why am I gonna blog something about this?Well, this might probably surprise everyone except for my bhe half. He knows it. And I think he's dealing with it for me. For loves sake. ahaha. So here comes my disorder. Tenen! Anxeity as what wikipedia defines is a psychological and physiological state characterized by cognitive, somatic, emotional, and behavioral components These components combine to create an unpleasant feeling that is typically associated with uneasiness, fear, or worry. If you are following my blog ( i hope so?) you'll probably have an idea about my so called battle. I've been dealing with this for quiet sometime. Honestly,I already had this feeling when I'm still in my grade school years.I never grew up with compliments.I have my own world. Though I got alot friends most of the time I can't deal with my anxiety. I had this feeling that I'm the most ugly person in earth, the one who got a disgusting look not to mention my body size, my color, my hair, my teeth..everything about me. I almost had this thought at the back of my mind that everyone will do shit to me just because I'm just like this. You might be laughing while reading this post but this is a serious thing I think (just I thought?) that up to now I've been dealing with. If you could still recall I've mentioned something about "script" on my post about Surprise. So here's the picture. My bhehalf's friend was her x. And I invited her. She's a nice person and there's no question about that. I invited her not just because she's supposed to be in that place for she's one of my bhe half's tropa way back in highschool but for the reason that I also wanna test myself. Sounds so selfish right? But that is the only way (i think again?) that I could overcome this feeling of being anxious. I don't know where the hell I got this feeling but if I could only forget it as simple as forgetting the answers during recitation I WOULD. But this is a process..which I think I positively going through. Before we enter the house I told my bhehalf not to leave me. He's clueless that time. I tried to avoid it. Grrrrr! But I can't. I wanted to stop the thoughts coming into my head but I was as if a pc generating a program on it. But the next few hours he sat beside me he knew that something was wrong and then he gave me a hug. So what's the result of my ultimate test? I'm a bit fine now. Though there's still moment where i feel the same thing but gladly I'm starting to feel good about myself.
I'M UNIQUE.
I'M DIFFERENT.
I'M SPECIAL.
As such, it is distinguished from fear, which occurs in the presence of an observed threat. Additionally, fear is related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance, whereas anxiety is the result of threats that are perceived to be uncontrollable or unavoidable.
"a future-oriented mood state in which one is ready or prepared to attempt to cope with upcoming negative events" . A distinction between future vs. present dangers that divides anxiety and fear.
-----------------Way to go Marshi! Adja!
