hmmm.. I noticed that I almost posted just one side of my world. My routine when it comes to my school. I haven't share anything at all..yeah!haha..Just to freshen up my site that is full of anguish from the cruel world of law school. hmm.. How will I start?haha..Its pretty obvious why my site was named Marshi's World because its undeniably true that i really love and addicted to it. Marshmallows. I just can't resist the tempting sweet and soft mollows specially when I had a busy and a "not so good" day. I love writing down my thoughts. I love rainy days. I easilly get emotional with things. I rememeber the last time I cried was yesterday. I was just sitting right beside my bhe when we were playing this song from destiny's child cater to you. I don't know why the hell I cried that time.haha. Weird yet would not be a suprise thing to my bhe. He knows my mood swing. Though most of the time he get confused and think that something's wrong with him. I'm a self confessed possesive. I want the whole world see my existence. I'm afraid of loosing the things the really I treasured to the point of holding it too much. We never fight about that. I can say that I was too lucky to find someone who can love me despite of my imperfections. Being possesive is a psychological disorder as what I have reasearched. It is a disorder where in someone has experience a depression and rejection and wishes not to experience that way again and to make it worst if they become happy over something they always think that it might not gonna work out and same thing would happen. That's how imperfect I am. Atleast I admitted that already and I 'm trying to work it out with the help of my bhe. It's a mutual agreement that every couple i think must understand. Its something that you don't need to hide nor disregard for along the way this psycho disorder will certainly mess up your relation. I've been with my Bhe for almost 2 years now. We're about to celebrate our 2nd anniversary this coming 25th. Its not the years that you spent together that would make you feel better if you're having that disorder. But the fact the he's willing to catch all those pains whenever you'rte getting attack with this disorder without being bratt. I'm glad I was able to meet him for up to now I still don't know how to cope up with this freaking disoder. A big Thank's for my BHE...mwah!
love you bhe!mwah!
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